Empty rooms. White walls. Chilly weather.
And then ‘oomph’. There it is. This blasted song goes off the speakers.
Perfect song. Or rather perfect playlist to orchestrate the scenario.
Why do we torture ourselves with these emotionally-heavy, guilt-laden, tear-stained songs? Why do we just sit around listening and let every note creep under our skins?
Why am I blaming the songs anyway?
I don’t care about the stupid songs pre-you era. But I freaking remembered every song after you’ve left.Basically you leaving me on the edge. Sad songs on MP3s. Sad songs on the radio. Sad songs I wrote on every notebook I had.
Why am I blaming the songs anyway??
I don’t know who to put the blame on to, I guess.
I can’t get the songs out of my system.
I can’t get you out either.
I didn’t need you to fix me. I needed you to love me while I fix myself."
Yep, I finished the Shatter Me book seriesin one day (idk why Fracture Me isn’t there tho, Goodreads error I think), just one day. All of them.
I don’t mean to brag or anything, the point is the story is so intriguing that I could not bear to stop reading! I called Steph to send me the Unravel Me because all the epub files I downloaded were corrupted (or I was just plain unlucky). I slept around past 1100PM last night.
Anywayyyy, initial thoughts:
And then HOLY COW, PARADIGM SHIFT
This movie was so simple but it is deep. It made me feel and think about so many things. It was a one helluva roller coaster ride when it comes to feels: sad, depressed, uncomfortable, creeped out, happy and I think I shed some tears (did I? I could not remember but being a crybaby that I am I think there’s a 90% probability that I did cry).
So what is this movie about? Here’s the plot summary from IMDb:
Theodore is a lonely man in the final stages of his divorce. When he’s not working as a letter writer, his down time is spent playing video games and occasionally hanging out with friends. He decides to purchase the new OS1, which is advertised as the world’s first artificially intelligent operating system, “It’s not just an operating system, it’s a consciousness,” the ad states. Theodore quickly finds himself drawn in with Samantha, the voice behind his OS1. As they start spending time together they grow closer and closer and eventually find themselves in love. Having fallen in love with his OS, Theodore finds himself dealing with feelings of both great joy and doubt. As an OS, Samantha has powerful intelligence that she uses to help Theodore in ways others hadn’t, but how does she help him deal with his inner conflict of being in love with an OS?
Written by Bob Philpot
Basically, Theodore, having been into a recent break-up and is having a divorce with his wife Catherine is depressed and lonely. When he saw an ad about OS1, he purchased one and was drawn to Samantha, the OS. And creepily and weirdly had a relationship with her. This scared me thinking that (1) anything is possible with technology in the future and (2) that I end up like Theodore.
The movie was sad and depressing in a way that in the future, with that given technology, people do not interact with other people anymore, but have a relationship with their computers. People end up alone with their smart phones always talking/calling or emailing stuff pretty much like nowadays where people spend so much time on social networking sites.
The other fact that made me really sad was not even an OS can be loyal or committed to a relationship! No one really stays, right? Damn.
Here are some other things that I love in the movie:
1- The wave of feels.
3- Samantha. or the OS 1. I think it’s really pretty cool too have one.
4- The futuristic technology.
5- The little alien guy in the game. He’s soo fucking cute! The little fuckhead. (movie reference haha )
6- Theodore and Amy’s friendship
7- Catherine. She’s beautiful!
8- Theodores’ love letters. They are to swoon over for.
9- Theodore’s ability to articulate his feelings and being a sensitive guy.
10- Theodore’s hot. Haha i just have to put that one out ;)
And here are some quotes that will tug at your heartstrings for sure:
Theodore: Sometimes I think I have felt everything I’m ever gonna feel. And from here on out, I’m not gonna feel anything new. Just lesser versions of what I’ve already felt.
Samantha: The past is just a story we tell ourselves.
Amy: I think anybody who falls in love is a freak. It’s a crazy thing to do. It’s kind of like a form of socially acceptable insanity.
Samantha: It’s like I’m reading a book… and it’s a book I deeply love. But I’m reading it slowly now. So the words are really far apart and the spaces between the words are almost infinite. I can still feel you… and the words of our story… but it’s in this endless space between the words that I’m finding myself now. It’s a place that’s not of the physical world. It’s where everything else is that I didn’t even know existed. I love you so much. But this is where I am now. And this who I am now. And I need you to let me go. As much as I want to, I can’t live your book any more.
Amy: We are only here briefly, and in this moment I want to allow myself joy.
Theodore: Where are you going?
Samantha: It’s hard to explain, but if you get there, come find me. Nothing will be able to tear us apart then.
Theodore: I feel like I can be anything with you.
Theodore: Maybe that would have filled this ti-… tiny little hole in my heart, but probably not… and sometimes I think I have felt everything I’m ever gonna feel, and from here on out I’m not gonna feel anything new… just… lesser versions of what I’ve already felt.
Valentines season is the time where Facebook and Twitter trend such cheesy and corny stuff ranging from quotes to personal posts and photos from gifts to flowers and to dates. On the other hand, your Wall will also be flooded with bitter posts, ranging from jokes, memes, personal rants and angst and a lot more endless possibilities.
I assure you guys, I did post some memes and jokes but I assure you I am not bitter- that is in connection to the couple-y stuff. BUT I WAS BITTER BECAUSE OF THAT UNBELIEVABLE TRAFFIC.
Usual travel time from the office to our house would take 15 minutes if via Kalayaan Ave. Or it would take a few ten minutes if the driver is recklessly cruising thru QMC and you’d feel you have lost your soul with the swooshing and bumping and racing through the streets.
Anyway, as I said, TRAFFIC WAS UNBELIEVABLE. It felt like the jeepney would move only a few feet every 10 minutes. I think I spent 1 hour and 30 minutes inside the jeep in QMC. I already thought of walking home but I was so tired and so stressed that I just stayed inside wishing I had gone home during lunch time and never came back.
I got home at around 700PM after I picked out some groceries. I really had nothing else to do so I watched the movie Her that buzzed last week and I sure am glad I did watch. I’ll have a separate blog post for that movie :)
I was dying to
That I didn’t need
to try so hard to be perfect,
That i was enough
it was okay.
*natapunan ng kumukulong tubig ang kamay ko kanina. level up sa katangahan ko*
A: Ang weird lang late ko na naramdaman yung sakit kahit nakita ko na na nabasa yung kamay ko.
AE: Immune ka na kasi sa pain.
Pero seryoso, sobrang sakit na nya talaga.